Surrounded by Angels - The Secret Diary of a Contemporary Mystic (Paperback)

Provocative and Riddled with controversy, Briah's true tale transmits secret knowledge that saved her life and has the power to save others. "My violent coughing fits inspire repulsion instead of pity, and my very presence becomes a test for those around me. Without sufficient energy to feel self-pity, my mind grows silent. In the silence, I hear only my labored breath. After a time my breath becomes a wordless prayer. The peace that passes understanding is now upon me, and just as I feel I've reached nirvana an almost imperceptible resentment slowly usurps the silence. Day by day the mass of worshipers swells. Driven by the desire to be close to Sai Baba people push and crowd each other for front row seats. A dislike of crowds has kept me away from every rock concert I ever wanted to attend and now I feel as if I'm at a perpetual Dodger game. My growing resentment is focused directly at Sai Baba. Because it consumes my total attention I can see that it is tinged with prejudice. Miracles aside, would Christ really choose to revisit Earth in the body of this funny looking little Indian man? While I long to remake Sai Baba in the image of my desire, the penetrating futility of my longing uncovers a dij vu feeling of being a woman in Jerusalem during the Roman occupation where I stand at the foot of the Cross. There I witness the brutal murder of Jesus, the Man who is God. Though two-thousand-years stand between me and this memory, I am utterly consumed by grief."