Trapped in the Landslide (Paperback)

Trapped in the Landslide is the life story of a fifty-something year old man who appeared to have everything - a gorgeous wife, two sons, decent job, social standing - the lot. It was never apparent to others that he was missing vitally important elements to his life. The love of his mother. The company of his brother. The name of his father. Brought up by adoptive parents who handled his questions about his birthmother badly, he embarked on a journey of self-destruction that was to lead to behaviour that ultimately sent him to prison. Caught up in Operation Ore, the UK police operation to root out downloaders of child pornography, the self-destruction plan seemed perfect. The suicide attempt failed because of love from his wife, sons and friends he never knew he had. Original documents are reproduced wherever possible. Contemporaneous notes are also presented in this book which makes no attempt to justify or excuse the author's activity. The depth of love, friendship and good old-fashioned humanity he found in those who stood by him (nearly everyone who knew the full story) meant he had to learn a new skill. How to be loved. The cover of the book shows how he saw himself. Living on an island, surrounded by bright lights and fireworks to make people think he was a good man. But the house in the middle was, he thought, so disgusting that no-one was allowed near - not even his wife. The title refers to the feeling of being trapped in a life that he often wanted to end. Landslide is the name of the American website that led to his demise - then rebirth.