Played-Out Please-Er (Paperback)

Nioka Okeya BrewerA a¬a s Played-Out Please-er chronicles my comeback from a rape, degradation, and despair. I loved my grandmother, who provided a haven against my parents. I was raped at a young age and felt guilty because I took the treats they offered me. My clothes came from thrift shops, and I felt alienated and guilty in school. Although I pretended to be well-adjusted, my spirit was broken. I began going to clubs and living life in the fast lane. I was beaten, and there was a progression of men that I believed could provide me with a safe haven. I was reduced to living in shelters, but would always be looking for an escape through drugs and promiscuity. I discovered the power and support of a strong faith and clawed my way back to my own self-respect. I say, A a¬AIt took me about thirteen more years of life to realize that I was my own worst enemy. I kept choosing loser types. I was like a magnet for them. It took me even more heartache to figure out I didnA a¬a t need a man to define me as a women. I am a woman with or without a man to call my own. I finally realized I donA a¬a t need a man at all. All I need is God.A a¬A This is a poignant story and I donA a¬a t shirk from describing the depths of what I feel, both physically, spiritually, and emotionally. Written with graphic style, Played-Out Please-er is admirable in candor.